We all seek action, drama, that something to "keep us going" as my friend once called it..
As we get older.. Those precious moments of everything new, a new crush, a new job, a new love a new car, tend to wear off.. We run out of firsts and the rush of excitement we usd to get from them..
Me and my friends (all married now) had a get together and went through what we think is the problem with us right now.. Why aren't we as high on life as we were a few years ago.. Ah to be 21 and devoid of scepticism and cynicism..
And we came up with this.. We simply lack action, that umph we used to get when we hang out and discuss a new relationship, job mishap, outfit, or breakup.. It was the drama that kept us going.. That made every day special.. In its own way..
But if we are finding it hard to settle down after setting the bar so high pre-settling down.. How are all those women doing it?
One of the girls suggested that "they get their kicks out of pregnancy.. And raising kids.. And basically having their lives revolve around the upbringing of healthy well bread individuals into this world"
But this can't be the only solution!
We, all four of us, are working women, with a full time job and extras, we spend time with our families, husbands, gals, department stores and shoes.. We do all there is to do.. But there is a void still.. Where our stories used to be..
And then one of them jumped in: I watch noor!
She went like: it has enough drama to keep me going!
So with this I ask you.. After a certain age, when ur fresh out of firsts.. What do you do to get ur dose of drama?
Or should it be a thing in the past, and the present is better left still, sans ripples?
A few years ago, when the first organic supermarket opened in Dubai.. I remember my mom bringing back all sorts of groceries and declaring that "We will go organic".. the next day.. no one had lunch.. it was.. un-palatable, if i were to describe it in one word..
So it was then and there that i knew "organic" is not for me.. But since i'm trying to be more environmentally conscious as of late.. i decided give it another shot..
1. The Hair Care: Yes i ditched my fekkai's for a week to try out this environmentally friendly line of products instead.. the result.. not so good. Where i was used to getting VOLUME, i ended up with flat hair that really did not seem "crisp" enough to me..
2. The Fizzy Drinks This is what i'm having instead of perrier starting next week.. (will tell you how it goes)
3. The Cat Litter:
Absolutely amazing! the best there is.. and u get a clear conscious out of it too! XD
I admit it's nothing.. but I'm taking it one step at a time...
It could be a good thing if I meant "no one is sick anymore" but its not that..
When I say "everyone" is out of town, I mean literally: No one is here!
I am used to seeing around 30 patients a day, more or less.. But if I was to sum up the patients I saw this WEEK I would say they fell short of 20.. (That's in four days)!
One might say: quelle chance! You should enjoy the slow pace, savour the tranquillity et al.. But realistically.. Its just.. Boring!
To me, getting out of bed and going to work is such a big thing that I would rather not go to work than spend the day doing close to nothing at the clinic!
And after the first hour of journal updates (which are on summer break mode too), work emails, some paper work and chit chatting with the other doctors.. I pretty much have nothing to do but wait till a patient walks in.. To a person sans patience (like me ;p) its pure torture!
Its a summer thing, I'm told.. August is the slowest month for us here..
Its just not working for me though.. So I decided to take a few days off.. Might as well stay in bed till a decent hour and do something more time efficient with the rest of the day!
- to september! xx
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I have heard so much about "Pretty Ballerinas", they are specialized in making ballerinas and nothing but.. in fact they have been doing it since 1918! Their shops in london are supposed to be a "sanctuary" for comfortable pump ballerinas.. where all u have to do is pop in and pick according to colour, material and size.. and be guaranteed soles that are both trendy and comfortable. Its like a candy store for ballerina lovers..
So here I was, shopping (but not really shopping.. just strolling i guess ;P) when i saw them here.. in Dubai.. stacked in all the colours i can think off.. with all sorts of bows and ribbons.. AND they were a delight to walk in.. Really comfortable.. think kid gloves!
I personally love a place with variety.. have a look at their website: Pretty Ballerinas and tell me what you think!
“Some people dream of swimming pools. I dream of closets!”
I am typing this amids piles and piles of clothes, bags, shoes, belts.. U name it, its here. I am in The Closet, my sacred shrine as my husband calls it lol.
I've been here since yesterday, trying to figure out how to free some space, and increase the turnover ;p
Its just that I hate throwing out stuff.. Each and every piece was hand picked and made mine. It reminds me of something, somewhere or someone.. It is this "sentimental value" that I find really hard to give up on.
I know that a bag from 3 seasons past is not leaving the closet (not on me anyways) anytime soon.. But how can I part with it when I had my name on the longest waiting list, waited on tip-toes and was walking on clouds for days when I got "the call" lol?
And let's not forget the shoes.
I have invaded most of my husband's closet space as is, and there's nothing left but to cancel out those pieces I do not need anymore.
The weather is getting worse by day, not only is it hot and humid but its dusty and grey in a ghastly way..
And to top it off all my allergies have flared up from the dust n what not, my face is starting to breakout a la pollution and my head is throbbing from the lack of sleep and.. Something. Probably allergic sinusitis.
Must get out pronto.
- to .. Nothing comes to mind, I'm in a dark place right now.
In an imperfect world, we seek perfection, our expectations soar, when reality is really far from perfect. And so we get disappointed, and with disappointment comes resentment and we end up feeling unhappy.
And with that, we try to change the situation, to what we perceive as our utopia, and when we fail.. The dissatisfaction cycle goes on.
What a vicious cycle it is.
And then I read this:
When we are no longer able to change a situation - we are challenged to change ourselves.
(Victor E. Frankl)
And I decided to stop trying to make my life fit into this frame I have painted in my head, that in order for me to be really happy, I need to change ME, the way I see things, the way I deal with them, and try to make do, to settle.