So here i was, at work, mwa9la.. (as usual).. sleep deprived and with 1001 life defining questions gushing in my head.. when i bumped into derek.. (from here )
Me: oh.. Hey!
Me: Remember me? XD
Him: Ofcourse i do, how have u been
Me: (fighting the attempt to blurt out "FUCKED") I'm okay.. just passing by to get my letters of recommendation, you wouldn't happen to remember how working with me was?
Him: I do remember one thing.. u stuck out..
Me: mmm I'm hoping that's a good thing
Him: Well yes, u question everything, and thats a really good thing to see for a change..
Me: oh! :)))
Him: so there's your compliment for the day :P
Me: thanks I'm flattered..
AND THEN.. without even a second thought (i'm blaming the lack of sleep) i went like
"ITS JUST THAT.. I CANT KEEP ON QUESTIONING EVERYTHING ANYMORE!"
Him: its a good thing, trust me.. ur gonna find ur way eventually..
Me: I'm sorry its just that i haven't slept for a while now, and things kinda pile up and i try to look at it critically and see it from all the different aspects.. but i really cannot do this anymore! (got all flushed, then had a reality check, this is NOT my therapist wtf am i doing?)
Him: Just let it be.. things usually fall into place eventually.. and when u know.. u know :) Trust me, its much better to question things than have a passive approach to life, its refreshing to see someone do that for a change...
we chit chatted a bit more about life, options and opportunities..
and i walked away feeling much better than i did in a long long time!
So this one goes to u.. Derek, for pulling me out of my dynamo and saying just the right thing i needed to hear.. that something sane, the reminder we all need from time to time that yes, we are going in the right direction, that all is not in vain
Sometimes,its all you need to hear.
- to better times xx
PS. I am seriously slacking spiritually, i hope you guys are making the most out of ramadan though!